No Today

Now everyone is gone. Even he.

yes. I drove them away,

not even him could stay.

I gotta say I'm sorry.

So fast they went.

didn't bother me much

oh yes, I pretend.

Actually really it does.

I wish he'd tried harder

guess am not worth it.

I wish i'd been stronger,

and hadnt been so stupid.

he turned back but I did it again

chasing him away

if he leaves this time,

see him, i dont know when.

guess i deserve this

being alone and isolated

noone has to suffer the bitterness

and something of the like, I created.

my hands are tired

from shoveling the lovely stones away.

sitting here, eyes empty,

the mind has gone astray.

I wish there were no Today.